I know...I seem to write in bursts. And I haven't written about sex in awhile.
My latest "project" at work, data-entry into spreadsheets, tend to have my brain to daydream about...well, frankly, about sex. This morning was no exception. Usually my object of "desire" is M, and the many naughty things we do realized or otherwise. But I do get cerebral in my thoughts about sex. And today, I thought, "Well, could I sleep with a woman?"
Its not that I am unsure of my sexual orientation. I've described my orientation to people, often coyly, as a flaming heterosexual. In deed, I am attracted to men. To me, I love the smell of a man, how his hands touches me, the feel of his penis in and out of me. Yes, I love how penises come in different sizes and thicknesses. I love exploring the texture of them with my tongue, having it grow in my mouth as I suck them...mmm. Did I mention how much I love fellatio? Oh my god, I could do that for hours. I just love how a penis can be both hard and soft when I'm licking and sucking it.
Oh, and lets not forget how good it feels to have a hard cock inside me. Ok, I'm a bit biased because I'm having amazing sex with M, and his penis seems to fill me an all directions that if I was a better writer I'd describe in full-detail...because I so want to gloat how fucking amazing it feels.
Sorry...I got really distracted. :) Where was I? Oh right...fucking women!
Its not a conundrum, but here's the thing, I like my porn with women in it. I know that I can't be the only straight woman who like watching girl on girl action on film, but to tell you the truth, the thought of sleeping with a woman in real life yields a response close to "eh". When it appeared that I had a really good chance to sleep with a woman (um....going to college in the San Francisco area, and knowing women that did go through a lesbian phase literally in their Freshman year), my interest level never piqued past curiosity. But, ever since I gave permission to like porn for myself (ironically my sophmore year in college more or less) I've always seeked out the girl on girl action for my, ahem, carnel edification. Now, I do like straight sex porn from time to time. I like looking at blowjobs (Yes it seems to be a running theme for me :D) and hardcore fucking scenes. But I was going through Fleshbot last night, and I was totally turned on by this.
But I really haven't answered my question. Would I?
Seriously, maybe probably not. No, this is not a cop out answer. Look, if there was a situation that I met a woman whom I was attracted to, and we were both curious, and the all the planets were aligned...then maybe. I figured out a long time ago that I was not bi-sexual, and being labeled bi-curious just didn't fit. Not to mention I hate that label...who hasn't been bi-curious at some point in their life?
Blah...this post was meant to be a serious discussion about gender orientation, and why people shouldn't care about because its stupid. Damn it, makes me want to go through my porn collection if I can find that one video of......
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