Hopefully this journey will not end in pain.
A while back, a friend told me that we are not like normal people. That even though we see the truth in things and face them, we will not be thanked nor praised for it. Now that my old life is ending I see that he is right.
Because of an indiscretion, I will have to leave my marriage. That indiscretion didn't start that path, rather it was the facilitator of the demise. I now know that it caused pain on the other side. My nature is to be honest, and while at the time I thought it was what was needed. Instead it just confirmed a notion percolating in my being all of this time...that people don't want to see the truth. They don't want to hear it, see it, or face it.
Oh, there's plenty of lipservice, shrines to the truth, priests and priestesses, popes to the notion that you must know the truth and change it. But that's a lie. People don't want to know. Once you know the truth its out, you must deal with it, you must change, and change leads to turmoil. Rather live with the blinders on.
And that's my crime. To shine a light to whom are blind.
I want to live without my blinders on. I want to bask in that light. Screw everyone.
