Oh...Let me update you on some things.

Heh...I write a post announcing that I decided to quit my job, write nothing about it for months, then leave you hanging because all I seem to do is write about my sex life or my emotional breakdowns.

After I wrote that post, I hung around my previous job for another month. Originally, the plan was to get a job while I was employed. Perhaps it was the stress of going through interviews while wrapping up some organizational projects, but I had a string of rejections despite getting some serious leads. In the end, I left that job in mid May, without any prospects nor a huge savings.

For a month, I was unemployed, getting appointments for interviews, and even took a two-week temp job just to get by. But in the end I received two job offers, both very compelling and enticing environments. I choose a position that was closer to home, and closer to my career goals.

Four weeks into my new job and already I feel like I belong. Everyone knows me, and I couldn't be happier with the fit in terms of environment and position.

I'm not making as much as I used to, but I can pay my bills, rent, and eat.

So I wanted to thank everyone who helped me along the way...M, my references, and some great recruiters who believed in me even though I found this job on my own.

Timing

We are taught to take things by command, to seize the day, to live every moment, as if we had control of every facet of our lives. But the harsh reality is that whenever we are dealing with other people, control is an illusory fantasy found in self-help books.

As is the case of dealing with major life events.

No. I'm just going to speak in generalities. Suffice it to say that, just because you've moved forward, trying to make a life from the pieces shattered from hurt and anger, doesn't necessarily mean that the other person is moving at the same rate. My expectations was never high, but I never thought that at seven months of carving out my own life, I would feel a sense of loss on a regular basis.

I only live one day at a time now. And even with a precarious peace I'm experiencing right now, I know that things will change with or without me exerting any energy to dictate the course.

Although I wonder, did I deliberately became unemployed (thus putting my survival in jeopardy) just so that I can delay dissolving my marriage? I didn't think so at the time. My former employer did comment that with life changes such as a this, you tend to change everything else in your life.

Regardless, its time for me to start the end. I have no excuses...and he is now ready.